It's been fairly quiet on the adoption front up until today. My husband and I decided to work on paying off our debt in order to pursue possibly adopting in the future, so the idea was kind of put on the back burner of my mind. And in the process, I put God on the back burner too. There's just been some issues and I have felt like God was far away. I became increasingly aware of this and decided yesterday that I needed to sit and read my Bible. I picked up in Hebrews and gained some great insights. It was actually a fruitful quiet time, though not as "quiet" as I would have liked. (It never is with 3 children, is it?)
Then today, somehow, adoption came up again in my thoughts again. I came across a photo I have seen many times over the last few weeks. Of a girl. This particular girl is 12 years old. She also has a special need.
I wasn't prepared for the reaction I received after showing her photo and talking about her to my husband. All I can say is, whether or not we choose to pursue this particular child, God is making it abundantly clear that this is going to happen on HIS time, in HIS way. Both of which seem to be completely opposite of my own! I know I wrote about this lesson in my last entry, but it seems God knows I haven't fully grasped it yet. There's a difference between knowing something and embracing it.
With God, is that we should expect the unexpected.